pain

i feel no good,i have both physical and non physical pain,i want to cry but a big boy doesnt cry,i should hide my emotions.paul the icy man!
i am listeing to joshua bell's romance of the viollin,the peice is o mio babbino caro.i llove the sound of violin.i love cello,and flute but never played them.i wish i could,i think with playing these instruments or anything other you could empty your soul.but i do nothing with my useless self!what a waste i am